Colagem - Holden's rebirth

The reason I’m here and all is to tell you a little bit about this girl. She is this very beautiful girl who’s so goddam beautiful that can get you depressed as hell. I mean it. Really. She has this goddam pretty eyes, for chrissake! It kills me! It really does. And the way she speaks and all, boy, was I in love. I started to think that I should give her a buzz and all, but it kinda made me feel a little depressed. You know, you take this very cute girl and ask her to go out with you and all, you give her the look and you really try and everything, but they are too goddam beautiful. It just can’t work out. Then I figured what I’d do, I would call her and all, ask her to marry me all of a sudden and then just say it was a lie. Just for the hell of it. But when I came close to make that call I gave up. I guess I just didn’t feel like doing it. You have to be in the mood to do something like this, for God’s sake. But she did have a helluva pretty face. Christ was she cute!

Anyway, I started thinking about the way she laughed and all, it was sort of a choke but in a cute way. You oughta see her laughing some time. It’ll kill you.
Goddam Christ! I don't seem to stop writing this way and all.
So I decided to go on with that. Just for the hell of it;
Sometimes I'm a madman. I really am. No kidding. I'm a goddam madman, for chrissake. That's what I am.